love the skin your in

we all have thing's that we dislike about our selves.... but what we don't take in to consideration is that the things we don't like, other people love and tell us to love it too!

we are never going to be happy with every single part of our body... but we can change most of those things, if we really want to... and you should only do it for you , no one else...

There is always going to be things we don't like about us... an some of them we can't change, so we have to learn how to love them...

The biggest problem we all have is the size of our clothes... we are not happy being the size we are... but think about it would you be happy being a size zero?... 'your the beautiful one, society is the ugly one'

' stop hating yourself for everything you aren't, start loving yourself for everything that you are'... love the skin your in.. you can change it when you want!....

love the skin your in ! 

how i feel today?

Today... i feel like i've let you down..

You mean everything to me, but you don't know.. i wish you did...

All i want to do is curl up in a ball and cry !...

You make me so happy an make me smile, even when you ain't trying, when you do i fell like you actually want to make me happy...

Today... i wish i could turn back time, so i can do things different... but i can't, 

I do want to make you proud of me, i try all the time, your all i think about...

I didn't think that i could feel like this so quickly... everything was going great, i felt great and then it all changed in a blink of an eye...

Today... i set out to make you proud.. but failed  you told me to have a good day, i promised i would.. but blew it!...

I feel like i've messed everything up once again, why can't i ever just be the person i want to, an not the person i use to be... sick of always being the girl that cries all the time...

Today's been a bad day!

My sexuality does not change me

My sexuality does not change who i am, 

I'm still me i don't change just because my sexuality does,

I'm not going to act any different...

Tic toc it's only in a matter of time that you'll question yourself who, what, when, were, how... 

who am i? why am i ?

I'm not going to act any different, 

just because i'm gay,

I will still act the same way....

The only thing that has changed is my feelings,

i know that people won't like it 

 but it doesn't matter who you are ! 

My sexuality does not and will not change me,

now you know you may think i'm acting different but

i'm not...

I cant change even if i tried,

even if i wanted to,

And I can't change

Even if I tried

Even if I wanted to

My love

My love

My love

she keeps me warm,

she keeps me warm, 

she keeps me warmm...

My sexuality does not change me !.......

friend!

you claim i'm your friend and that you are always there for me, well what about when you go off and ignore me?!...what about then?

you know what i'm going through and you understand that, but what you don't understand is that you are hurting me too...
i can't tell you because i don't want to upset you....

i wish that i could change the way i am and not to be so mean to you at times but i can't help it, you upset me that much
i don't know how to treat you...

sometimes its like i'm not even your friend when you are with them, ha some friend you are at times! but saying how i really feel to you is hard! 

knowing you know whats wrong with me makes it harder for me not to  be friends with you, you are giving me the perfect advise and great complements but you are not proving that you really 
are my friend...

things seem to be going totally the wrong way and you go make everything ten times harder for me, well i'm not going to be the person that everyone just walks all over any more, i'm going to say exactly how i really feel and who i am from now on and i don't want anything to do with you ! 

i've learnt

so these last two days i have learnt that i can not trust the people i thought i could, 
i just wish that i could tell people the truth but thanks to yous i can not tell people myself...

i wish that things could of gone a different way,
so many things have made me think that i should just tell people
but then i don't want to because i'm too scared...

I always over think everything, i know that it won't be as bad as i am thinking it will but it is going to be horrible...
if only i could just take it all on the chin like other people can!...

I've learnt that i should only trust the people that trust me, not people that don't!

just wanna believe in me !

you say i need to believe in myself well... it's not that easy with everything going on in my head, you say i need to have my confidence that i had 6 months ago but how can i do that when people don't treat me like i should have any...!

I don't wanna be afraid

I wanna wake up feeling beautiful..today

And know that I'm okay

Cause everyone's perfect in unusual ways

So you see, I just wanna believe in me...

The mirror doesn't lie it always shows you how other people see you...you say i'm strong but i'm not, I'm not about to break down.. not today i guess i always knew, i can find the strength to make it through this!...

I'm losing myself trying to compete with everyone else.. instead of being me..Don't know where to turn.. I've been stuck in this routine.... i need to change my ways instead of always being weak!!....

You've made me realize how much i have  changed and for the better and now i'm just messing things up in more ways then one...

you have made me think about how i should be and i am very grateful for that.. i don't always believe what people say because i've been so use to have nasty things said to me...

But lately everyone has been so kind and so understand...an i just wanna believe in me...Not gonna be afraid

I'm going to wake up feeling beautiful..today

And know that I'm okay

Cause everyone's perfect in unusual ways

So you see, now, now I believe in me <3 

My Slimming World Journey So Far

my slimming world journey so far has been one of the best things i have ever done in my life, i have met some amazing people who has always been there for me no matter what...

I have had ups and downs, put weight on loss weight but you can not have a weight loss journey without the gains, but it always makes you stronger to do better next week...

no one has ever judged me, i couldn't wish for a better consultant, she's been there when i needed help, when i thought i couldn't do it when i could 1 she would always encourage me to do well and not always come in with a weight loss...

there is also another person that has been there for me when ever i have needed advise, shes helped me threw soo much this last year and half...

but honestly i would not change a thing, Its always the down weeks that will boost your confidence for the week a head... when i first put weight on it was horrible and i felt disappointed  but when then it became much easier to deal with...

NEVER GIVE UP !!! its the best thing you could ever doo !