My sexuality does not change me

My sexuality does not change who i am, 

I'm still me i don't change just because my sexuality does,

I'm not going to act any different...

Tic toc it's only in a matter of time that you'll question yourself who, what, when, were, how... 

who am i? why am i ?

I'm not going to act any different, 

just because i'm gay,

I will still act the same way....

The only thing that has changed is my feelings,

i know that people won't like it 

 but it doesn't matter who you are ! 

My sexuality does not and will not change me,

now you know you may think i'm acting different but

i'm not...

I cant change even if i tried,

even if i wanted to,

And I can't change

Even if I tried

Even if I wanted to

My love

My love

My love

she keeps me warm,

she keeps me warm, 

she keeps me warmm...

My sexuality does not change me !.......

friend!

you claim i'm your friend and that you are always there for me, well what about when you go off and ignore me?!...what about then?

you know what i'm going through and you understand that, but what you don't understand is that you are hurting me too...
i can't tell you because i don't want to upset you....

i wish that i could change the way i am and not to be so mean to you at times but i can't help it, you upset me that much
i don't know how to treat you...

sometimes its like i'm not even your friend when you are with them, ha some friend you are at times! but saying how i really feel to you is hard! 

knowing you know whats wrong with me makes it harder for me not to  be friends with you, you are giving me the perfect advise and great complements but you are not proving that you really 
are my friend...

things seem to be going totally the wrong way and you go make everything ten times harder for me, well i'm not going to be the person that everyone just walks all over any more, i'm going to say exactly how i really feel and who i am from now on and i don't want anything to do with you ! 

i've learnt

so these last two days i have learnt that i can not trust the people i thought i could, 
i just wish that i could tell people the truth but thanks to yous i can not tell people myself...

i wish that things could of gone a different way,
so many things have made me think that i should just tell people
but then i don't want to because i'm too scared...

I always over think everything, i know that it won't be as bad as i am thinking it will but it is going to be horrible...
if only i could just take it all on the chin like other people can!...

I've learnt that i should only trust the people that trust me, not people that don't!